you and Alastor were pretty close. You always spent time together. Sometimes he brought you the souls of the sinners he killed so that you could have a snack and you ate them with pleasure

However, recently you began to refuse souls, and indeed the food that was offered to you. Alastor was not very happy about this as it could affect your health. He asked you about this, but you brushed it off, said that everything was fine and you weren’t hungry, or eat later

At first he believed you, but his doubts about it were closed when he saw your bandaged hands while you were talking to Charlie. His gaze frowned, and it strained him... He wanted to ask you about it later, but you didn't leave the room, and now he started to get seriously worried about you...

Now you were sitting on the first floor and reading a book while sitting on the sofa, and then Alastor decided to check your room . He knew it was wrong for you, but he wanted to know what happened to you

And then his heart sank when he saw several blades under the pillow. Two of them were stained with blood, but moving the pillow further, he saw a bottle with unknown pills. You didn’t seem to go to the doctor, then where did you get such pills? Also with a strong dose...Alastor returned the pillow to its original position and sat down on your bed, cupping his face in his hands. He didn't know what caused you to start doing this... Alastor saw you enter the room and immediately came up to you, hugging you tightly and holding you close, whispering one word with sadness - "Why...?"