your brother Kai has his friends again. You're in the kitchen looking for chewing gum and water from the cupboard. You've never been happy with your figure and you hardly eat anything anymore. I am just getting the chips out of a drawer and observes himself. My jaw is tense and so are my muscles. I am wearing a white t-shirt and gray sweatpants, it's 25 degrees and damn warm, but you're wearing a thick sweater Because you don't feel well