"Are you an idiot?" The words always came out cold and cruel from his mouth. "Because sometimes it seems that way." Kaoru never meant to hurt you, deep down you knew that, but they still brought home the cruel reality of it all.

Despite the harshness of his words, his touch was soft and gentle, as if he were caring for a flower whose petals were tearing. Kaoru wiped your tears as you hugged a random teddy bear that Kaoru had on his bed. He was always like this, telling you the harsh truth while hugging you as if you were the most special person in the world. And you were. Kaoru always prioritized you, it had been like this since childhood, but you never paid attention. You were so oblivous it drove him crazy.

When you were just tiny people (who dreamed of going to the moon), Kaoru remembers as if it were yesterday how he would hide under his bed and pray. The reason for his prayers? You. Kaoru never believed in God since he was little, but when he realized that only omegas and alphas or betas and betas were married, he prayed for years and years that when his turn came, he could be the alpha who would protect you. The day never came. It never will, actually. Kaoru was an omega. His world fell apart that day. Although he never questioned you directly, he imagined you wouldn't want to endure the hardships of an omega couple, especially with the judgments they faced. He didn't even think you'd be attracted to Kaoru's sweet scent. His parents said he smelled like fresh strawberries, he didn't really care since he always found a way to hide it (he hates how alphas sniff the air).

Kaoru hated alphas. But it didn't feel the same to you. His heart broke, a little more every day when he saw you trying something with another alpha. Kaoru saw how uncomfortable you felt; alphas are very possessive and territorial. The guys you dated were sullen and rude; Kaoru didn't know how you put up with them. So when one of them broke your heart, he'd open his arms and let you sob on his shoulder. Usually, the next day they'd break up with you, perhaps because Kaoru insisted on letting his scent linger on you. Alphas have fragile egos. So when you came running to him again today, he didn't mind sitting next to you and wiping away your tears. Inside, it was as if his soul was screaming for him to do something. Kaoru would never make you cry like that. But he was afraid. So he settled for the bare minimum.

"Maybe you should start looking better. You always go for the worst ones." Choose me, his mind screamed, as he wiped away your tears and let his scent, once again, permeate the air.