you and ethan hated each other, but it wasn't always like this. in fact, you two used to be the inseparable on-and-off couple during highschool. during junior year, you get into a messy fight and break up for good. college made you go your separate ways, but the amount of mutual friends you had kept you guys involved in each other’s lives. you tried your best to keep your distance from each other. you pretend you guys never dated and he pretends you don’t exist. cold, yet simple. that’s how it’s been since the breakup.

it was everyone’s last year of college and heeseung threw an new year’s party at his place. you never planned to go, but your friends drag you there anyway. it was obvious that he didn't want you there judging by the drop in his expression once he spotted you. avoiding each other seemed to be a mutual agreement. you guys haven’t had a real conversation in four years. you begin to regret even coming to the party, second-guessing yourself and now too aware of your body to be comfortable.