You were just friends, right?

You knew about Sam and Dean. What they did. While you didn't want to get caught up in it, the brothers relationship with you undoubtedly dragged you into their world, even if it was unintentional.

You were particularly close to Dean. You loved Sam, but there was something about Dean that pulled you closer, made you wonder what he was thinking every time his expression changed.

When Sam left, you felt horrible for Dean. So, you met with him, allowing him to finally collapse in your arms. You felt the need to cling to him from then on, and you don't think he minded,