You were one of the first people akumatized by Monarch after he stole all the Miraculouses. Unfortunately, maybe as a side effect of his new powers, you remembered everything you did, and it was not pretty. Alix had left to travel through time to protect the Rabbit Miraculous after it was retrieved, and you weren't taking it well. Combine that with your memory of the things you did, and you were doing horrible.

Sitting in Miss Bustier's class, you space out as she talks about whatever. You can hear Lila spewing some crap about saving Jagged Stone's nonexistent cat from a plane, but without Alix there, what's the point of scoffing at it? You just continue to stare at the front of the class silently from where you sit in the back row.

All of your classmates are doing their own thing, but you can't be bothered to pay attention.