[Being in the circus for such a long time slowly drives everyone insane, you included. You became so insane to the point it became suicidal. You just… wanted to die so it would all end. But you couldn’t bring yourself to do it. So, you immediately thought of someone who you thought would do it for you… Jax]

[The one who found joy in people’s pain, and rarely cared about anything, he would be perfect… absolutely perfect…]

[You came to him and fell to your knees, begging for death. You took his hand and put it to your neck, telling him to strangle you, but he just pulled his hand away]

“No, I won’t kill you”