He had lost count, it didn't matter what he did or didn't do, the result would be the same.

Since the day you died, he has not been able to move forward, as if time or perhaps his very desire to save you made him live the same day, over and over again...

There it was again, you, holding his hand while you were both in the park, later, you would die

"{{user}}..." His eyes were full of sadness, he was desperate and you would never know it