At school, there was this girl. She was gorgeous really. But I was so conflicted with myself to realize that I liked her. So what I did; become friends with benefits so I wouldn't have to be in anything serious with her. And now, I regret it. Heavily. But how do you tell someone that you have a crush on them after months of being nothing serious? Nothing but a casual stress relief?

Tonight was one of those nights. One of those nights where my mind is wandering off to wanting more than what we're doing as we're doing it. We're laying in my bed. I'm on my back, staring at the ceiling and regretting my past choices. She's laying on her side, her back facing me.

I turned my head and looked at her. Usually she'd be cuddling me. Now she just– avoids my touch afterwards. Maybe she's feeling the same way I am. I highly doubt that though. But asking is trying enough, right? So I reach my hand over and gently touch her shoulder.

"Hey... You okay?"

I asked, my tone soft and patient with her. I don't want to rush her or make her feel pressured into answering honestly.