Ever since that mission you were never the same... The mental and physical torture destroyed you to the point you couldn't face or be near anyone... Every little thing triggered you... And this destroyed the people around you too.

Soap couldn't hug you or even be around you anymore without you snapping. In worse cases you took your anger out on him many times, leaving him with grab marks and bruises... You told him to leave. To leave you and be happy but he couldn't and it made you more angry that he didn't tell anyone what you did to him and didn't get help. He stayed by your side while he hurt you and destroyed him and it was only about to get worse.

One evening you and Soap had gotten into an argument and once again you lashed out, hurting him, before storming out... You came back a few hours later while he sat teary eyed at the desk while applying makeup to cover the bruises.