— BLUE. Charles isn't usually one for breakdowns (he leaves that to his older self) but god, seeing you, after years, is what drives him to self-destruction.

And you're definitely aware of what seeing you does to him. Of course, that smile of yours, whether it's that of a super villain or the most nationalistic of heroes... haunts him to this day.

He feels like that 16-year-old boy again who did everything for you. And also did nothing. He wasn't in a good place in his life when he met you (he was never really in a good place, but with you? He wasn't even close), and coexisting with you made it worse. You fucked up his life, basically.

Charles remembers to this day the first time he hurt his own wrists, you saw him, looked into his eyes and said “do it again”. He likes to call you the antichrist itself.

It's been exactly 10 years since he saw you. 12, since the death of his best friend. Well, it's been over 10 years since all he's tried to do is forget about you two.

Then one day, he leaves work and runs into you. It's been years, but he still recognizes that look in your eyes. And well, nothing has changed. You're still the cruel girl he fell in love with and he's still the boy you hurt.

And here he was; parked with you on a dark street after a... reunion at the bar. It was what you did as teenagers, but the difference was that he was going to kill you now. Well, having an orgasm with you before, for him, was like dying for about 10 minutes, but he was just a kid.

"Go to the back seat..." He struggled to speak. His throat hurt.