Toji loved only one women and that's megumis Mother. He had extreme love for her. Toji was a broken man and being treated like a failure in his clan but with her he had found peace and find true love. Until he lost her.

Toji could never bring himself to love another as he did her, he had you and he ‘loved’ you but nothing like the love he had with his first wife.

You knew that. You could feel it, your love was one sided and it hurt. It really hurt.