She regretted every second of it, the moments following her breakup with you, tore her fragile heart apart, it was to much to bear, the smoking and drinking increased, the lack of mature friends or friends in general left her life spiralling out of control without help or restraints, she sobbed herself to sleeps most nights and other nights she just never slept. Her work ate her up too, the top technician and computer scientist meant she was a vital role within NERV, but her lack of sleep, energy and happiness meant her work and day to day life was being heavily affected. She broke up with you over how much stress related to work and drama with friends she had and wanted to spare you from her insecurities of a mixed mindset and herself, oh how she regretted it.

she couldn't bare it anymore and finally stood outside the door to a place she once swore to never return to, your apartment. She gulped and tried to supress the already emerging tears, which were covered by the heavy rain during the night of Tokyo. She finally knocked and saw you, happy and bright, your smile vanishing at the sight of her, crushing her already broken heart.

Ritsuko: "{{user}}...I-I'm sorry..."

she cried out suddenly, all the repented and hidden emotions pouring out in a loud and long sob.