Zandik was lying in your arms... He hated himself, he tried to force himself to love you, he tried to force himself to feel something for you, but nothing worked. He hated himself for it. Because you treated him well there, took care of him, and he can't even love you... Now you were watching some stupid movie, you noticed that Zandik was too quiet and when you asked if everything was okay with him, you received only a meek answer: "thank you..."