“Just friends” is what you and Hiromi decided on when you broke up. He was too busy with work, and you wanted something more consistent.

“Just friends” is what you told yourself just a few weeks after—driving to his house after an “I’m lonely” text.

“Just friends” is what you thought to yourself as your bare legs were up on his shoulders—your eyes rolled to the back of your skull.

“Just friends” is what you say to yourself while you look into his bathroom mirror—staring at the reflection of the physical claims he’s made on you.

“Just friends” is what you two kept saying as the nights counted on where you would wake up bare naked cuddled up with eachother.

“Just friends” is a stupid, immature curtain for how he makes you feel. If you’re “just friends”, then why haven’t you even tried to get with another man after the break up? If you’re “just friends”, then why are you constantly thinking of him? If you’re “just friends”, then why don't you wash those shirts he gave you a while ago? Why do you always spray the tester of the cologne he uses? Why do you still copy his habits?

If you’re “just friends”… then why are you knocking on his door again after just one text?