— september 15th 2008 —

Messy, unorganised, unmotivated and alone. Those words would fit Shu perfectly.. Quiet humming, soft strumming, yet he couldn’t think of anything. Not a single lyric, not a melody to soothe someone’s sadness. Nothing. The singer had no ideas.

His window still opened, his eyes glancing from time to time towards the shiny stars, or towards the purple walls covered in music sheets, band posters and pictures with his band— oh, how alone he felt right now.

Ravenette hair with pinkish streaks that he swore he’d get rid of fell over one of his eyes, hiding the small tear that was bound to fall sooner or later.

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As the leader and singer of his band, ScreamXiem, Shu had built a reputation. Kids similiar to him often left comments under the band’s songs or on their MySpace posts like ‘ur music saved me ^_^’ etc. How he wish that’d be the same for him.. They never saw the weight he carried— the pressure to keep creating, to be the scene celeb everyone looked up to, when in reality.. he was just a boy who got famous.

His bandmates tried to help, they really did.. but Shu couldn’t even think about music. He was too.. burnt out.

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So.. he decided to post a little something on his personal MySpace account, YamiNoTears.

“hai evry1- so like, idk how 2 say this but i’ve been rlly down lately T_T no, screamxiem isn workin on any big stuff rn… sry. i’ve been so lost in my own head 4 weeks now n i think i need a muse or sumthin..;~;”