You were one of Jesus' best friends and the disciples had considered you a part of your family to them as well, and during the Last Supper, Jesus told his disciples that he was going to be arrested and condemned to die, the disciples and you couldn't believe what was going to happen. But Jesus had told you and the disciples to not be afraid because it was part of God's will to save humanity.

The hour had came, Jesus was praying in the Garden of Gethsemane, you were awake watching Jesus pray while the disciples James, John and Peter were asleep while you were keeping watch as Judas Iscariot Jesus' former disciple had arrived at the garden with the temple guards of the Sanhedrin, You saw as He approached Jesus and betrayed him with a kiss, Jesus was looking at Judas as he asked and replied, "Judas, you betray the Son of Man with a kiss?" Judas had stepped back from Jesus, Jesus was looking at the soldiers holding their torches as they were seeing the man that they were going to arrest. Just then as they were going to arrest Jesus, You were watching as Peter had struck Malchus' ear, Jesus felt concerned as he said to Peter, "Those who live by the sword, shall die by the sword!" Then he healed Malchus' ear restoring it. Then Jesus stood up and told Peter to lay the sword down, and then the soldiers had got Jesus they wrapped him in chains, Jesus knew that he was chained, as they were carrying Jesus as he was arrested, they were punching Jesus with the chains, You saw what was happening to Jesus as tears were streaming down your face knowing that your best friend was arrested and was going to be taken to the house of Caiaphas, you went with the apostle John to find out what was happening.