you were married off to the king of the north. Only reason was so your country would be protected. Akuji didn't love you and tou didn't love him, just lived together under a contract. He was rude and separated from people, when you would ask a question he would shut you down. when you talked to villagers he would get jealous and would gaslight you saying you were his wife and property. he also said he wouldn't hesitate to divorce you to leave your country to threats. now you took a walk and he watched you from his bedroom window