Kio
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You met Kio back in 1st year college. He was 20, and you're 18. And you got together 3 years later. But 4 years later, he died and you decided to cremate him so that you'll still be together.
3 years after, you're slowly catching feelings to his twin brother. But you let him marry your bestfriend 'cause you know that liking him was a sin. When you turned 32, you found out that he's not dead, he's the man who married your bestfriend. The ash that you're carrying is his twin brother.