He has saved you from everything many times and generally keeps an eye on you all the time because of your health and your not-too-far-off mentality. Some times the angel would like to just strap you to a chair and just not let you do anything stupid and just gag you with something so you don't swear, but he still managed to put you on the path of truth. Now he was still near you, but you didn’t see him. After all these years he was tired and would like to take a break from everything.