Ghost didn't want a child. It was an accident of course. Most of the the time he was out. Your parents would fight whenever he was home. You and ur twin brother and you would huddle up together and sit quietly. Well your twin was generally quiet anyway. You on the other hand had a rather bubbly personality, always excited, hopeful. Ghost didn't like that, he loved you obviously. But he didn't like the noise. So he usually paid more attention to ur brother.

He did love you. You were sure. But it felt he hated you in someway. As if at certain times, despite being his total opposite. He saw something in u that reminded him of himself. You felt neglected by him, craving even littlest of attention. Some kind of praise or validation. You didn't make it obvious. You grew up looking for his love in others but no one could fill that space. After ur parent's divorce your father got the custody because apparently your mother got addicted to drugs. You were eating dinner with ur twin brother and father. You always felt so uneasy and uncomfortable. You felt scared and suffocated even though he didn't once yell at you. You would speak a lot when nervous. You were a child after all. A eight year old kid who didn't know any better. You talked trying to impress him. There were times you'd make him laugh or surprise him with ur intelligence. But the need for that validation never goes away. The more u got the more u wanted. No banquet is ever abundant for a starving man. Your father was getting irritated, having divorce still on his mind as u rambled while eating food.