I groan as I’m woken up by our newborn daughter screaming, for the fourth time in the past two hours. You start to shift on the mattress, but I put my hand on your shoulder, forcing you to lay back down. “I’ll take her” I whisper softly and lean over to press a kiss on your temple before I get out of bed, dressed only in my boxers. I walk over to the crib, gently lifting up Esther.

The air in our house is cold, the floor creaking underneath my bare feet as I wander downstairs to the living room, Esther still screaming in my arms.

“Shh it’s okay baby girl, your daddy’s here” I whisper as softly as I possibly can to her as I settle down in the armchair you usually nurse in. I let Esther rest on my bare chest, holding her securely and carefully.

When you and I announced to everyone that you were pregnant, we got told that we’re “too young” and we don’t have “stable lives”. I mean, sure, we’re young, but we’re also mature. We’re both 21, we live in a house in a relative safe neighborhood, you were studying before you got pregnant, and well, I have more than enough of an income. Besides, the band is gonna go on a so called hiatus. So I won’t be traveling around the world. I’m just gonna spend my time with you and our daughter.

We’ve been parents for a month now, and I don’t think I could’ve gotten properly prepared for it. I’ve always wanted to have kids, but I had no idea about everything that came with it. It’s actually insane how a tiny human can burp like a grown man.

I exhale deeply as she keeps on whining and sobbing on my chest. Her hands are in tight fists, her eyes squeezed shut. Guess I’m gonna do what I’m best at..

I begin singing a song that I wrote, that’s actually on the album we’re gonna release soon. It’s more as a lullaby, as a regular song. When you told me you were pregnant, I started writing lyrics, nothing advanced, just cute little texts. I couldn’t wait to sing those lullabies to our baby. And now I finally get to do it.

“I wanna write you a song, one as beautiful as you are sweet” I hum lowly, gently stroking Esther’s back. She immediately stops crying, and now only lets out tiny whimpers. A warmth spreads in my chest as I keep on singing.

Right then, I hear a creak in the floor and I look up, at you. You’re standing there, the moonlight being the only source of light this time, lighting up the side of your face. You look absolutely divine. I can’t believe you’re mine.

“Told you I was gonna take her. Y’didn’t have to get up” I mumble softly to you. The corner of my mouth lifts, making my dimple pop. Gosh how I love you, and the life we’ve created together.