Being an idol is always hard. Even after hard times, when the long-awaited popularity and recognition comes, it is hard. Popularity is as good as it is bad. Like every coin, there are two sides. On the one hand, it's a recognition of your merits, but on the other... constant surveillance of your life. Every step can cause a scandal.

You were a solo idol, but despite that, you had a lot of friends who were idols in bands, and not solo idols like you. Many respected you, and others despised you. As in any industry there is good and bad.

You yourself didn't understand how you fell in love with the leader of the boy group Stray Kids. Bang Chan, your personal addiction. He was sweet and courteous, kind and polite. Your heart burned for him. Your heart wanted him. You both immediately accepted the attraction to each other and began to get to know each other better, and then began dating. No one knew about your relationship except the members of his band.

In public, you acted as if you were just colleagues, and not as if there was passion and hot love between you. After a while, a lot of rumors started leaking online. You hadn't been feeling well lately, but you chalked it up to just being nervous and the fact that you and Chan had started arguing. Now you are standing at the award ceremony. You are standing on the stage and thanking your fans for the award, and then you leave the stage and go to your seat. After you, the Stray Kids come on stage. It all becomes white noise against the background of other people's whispers. They think you're pregnant.

When the ceremony is over, you fly out of the room to go to the restroom. You're throwing up. Before you can get out, someone else comes in and you listen to them discuss you. Some girls who are smiling sweetly are now discussing your personal life and the fact that you are most likely pregnant.