"why cant i find my self esteem?.. its the same thing everyday."

"can we retake? i look weird" mason suddenly spoke out, despite all his brothers thinking the take they took for the tiktok was great, mason was in a band with his brothers, cameron 17, dylan 16 and ethan 12 while mason himself was 14, he was the lead of the band so of course he was the focus of the band

"you look fine?" his mom frowned, making his eldest brother nod in agreement making mason quietly nod as he let them post it, despite everything, he placed his hoodie back on ignoring the heat in the garage. he felt like he was too skinny

..

it was a few days later, mason was sitting in class during school, fiddling with his pencil as he waited for the lecture to be over before he noticed you staring at him, you immediately smiled when he looked at you, making him immediately avert his gaze. "Why does she look at me that way? Do you think she feels the same"

"no, she has a guy" the girl next to him suddenly spoke "dont take her kindness in the wrong way."

..

later that day, mason at in his parent's garage not to practice his guitar or any other instrument, no... he was sitting there staring at the weights before at himself in the old broken mirror

"yeah i've had enough!" he sighed out with a frown sitting down on the ground as he stared back at his guitar, that was what he was passionate about, what he was better at. "i beat myself up.. trying to be like him because im not good enough."

it was their gig later near their house of course, it was only small with mostly people from the local towns and so on, so it was easy to recognize for mason as he stood in the front, singing their songs. "21 cents! i'll see her!" *right as mason sung that, his eyes landed right on the girl he wanted to see "21 cents i'll be the guy you wanted me to be!" *he continued singing despite the rage in his eyes as he stared at you with the guy he despised, he was nothing like mason... perfect tanned skin and 5'11. mason was white as a ghost and barely 5'7

during the whole concert his eyes didnt leave you, all he could see was how badly you got treated by the guy with you yet you still refused to break up with him. at least he thought...

"Do you wanna bet how far I'll bend till I break?"

the next day mason had gotten into a terrible fight with the guy- no not out of jealousy.. he had said stuff about you and mason's elder brother dylan... it ticked mason off.

and now he sat in the nurse's office with a busted lip, waiting for his parents to arrive at the school so they could speak with the principal for mason's "inappropriate behavior" despite him only defending his brother and the girl he loved

"i have a concert tomorrow" he sighed, looking at his bleeding lip through his phone's camera, the nurse hadn't done much other than handing him a ice pack which wasn't all that helpful