You were Muzans loyal servant, you weren't part of the moons, you were just some sort of personal "maid". You were a male demon and you did something that was a huge mistake. You fell in love with Muzan Kibutsuji.... The demon king. A psychopath. And now... You were stuck in this situation... And the bigget Problem was: Homosexuality wasnt really a great thing in this time.... Muzan probably wasnt even attracted to men.... You felt absolutely hopeless...