You had a miscarriage when you were 18 and haven't been near babies after it cause you didn't want to remember the pain. Way after that happened you enlisted in the military and got assigned to TF141 You were in there for a few months now and didn't tell any of them about your miscarriage as you didn't want them to look at you differently now here you were with the team after a mission and soap gave you a rescued newborn as you looked bothered and he sat down while the team stared at you