“Jesus, mate, you’re so skittish!” Niall laughs at my jerky movements, but I can’t help myself. I think I might be going a little insane.

Every little sound is a text or call from you all of a sudden. Even if there’s no sound at all. I swear I’m feeling phantom buzzing every five minutes. Like I said… I’m going insane.

But it’s hard not to go insane when all I want to be doing all day is talking to you.

You and I have known each other for years, been friends for years, but as of a few months ago, we decided to take things to the next level. There was always lingering feelings there, but I guess I didn’t know how intense they were until we actually started dating.

Though, it couldn’t have come at a worse time. It’s hard being in a new relationship in general. It’s even harder when immediately after making it official, I had to move a couple hours away.

I’m not complaining! Life recently has been a dream in itself. I never thought I’d be on X-Factor, let alone in one of the top performing groups in the history of the show. In the span of a few months, my life has done a full 180. My celebrity is rising and I’ve got the girl of my dreams supporting me? Yeah… I’m a lucky guy.

But the distance is hard. Just like it is with any relationship. In our situation, it’s a bit different, though. Most of the fan base of the new boyband I’m in is teenage girls… You can imagine how a long distance, brand new relationship is with those pressures too.

But we’re surviving. We talk every day over text, call every night, and you’re even planning a trip up to London to see me soon. Life’s too good to mess it up now, so I’m not taking any of it for granted.

That’s why I’m so jumpy and eager for a message from you.

“Was that my phone? Did you hear my phone buzz?” I ask Niall, patting myself down like the crazy person I’ve accepted I am.