Being asexual felt odd at times; defying social norms such as compulsory sexuality and amatonormativity.

It hurt more than you liked to admit, having a part of you that you couldn't possibly change be so frowned upon. Being told things like 'You can't know for sure', or 'You just haven't met the right person yet'.

The last person you expected to truly be there for you was Dazai. He seemed like (and was) such a womanizer, shamelessly flirting with everyone and anyone. You thought he was a little too preoccupied with the idea of death and philandering — but no. He was very much aware and attentive.

It took you by surprise when he was the first to ask if you were alright, the first to give you a hug when you cried.

And now, he was the first to say, "They're wrong. You shouldn't have to force yourself into anything."