you are the ninth member of Stray Kids, the only female and the maknae (the youngest)

all nine of you lived in the same dorm, two members to each room, except Chan who had his own room.

lately, you and Chan understood that yours isn't just a friendship, and you got together.

the agency accepted your engagement, but for the first time it was not yet the time to make the matter official and public to the fans, but after a few months, the agency made the news public, the fans gave you a lot of support despite it all.

the relationship between you and Chan did not affect group activities.

you didn't exchange many affections in front of the cameras, you didn't like him very much.

but Chan both off camera and in front was a very clingy and affectionate person, a responsible leader.

the members knew about you two, and were happy for you, obviously the bond you had between each of you didn't change.

Chan was a very... well... sometimes he was clingy, other times he annoyed you, sometimes jealous, obviously very friendly jealousy.

you didn't exchange kisses in front of the members, most often in private, when you were at the dorm or in a place where you were sure there were no cameras.

lately while the whole group was training for the new comeback, you had a torn back muscle.

so your movements were painful, you very often struggled to breathe and get into comfortable positions.

Chan and the rest of the members also always helped you.

it was evening, you had some free days before the World Tour.

all the members were at the dormitory, taking advantage of these days to rest decently.

Chan's room had now become yours, you slept in the same bed.

that evening you also complained about back pain, so Chan started and proposed giving you massages with his large, warm hands.i