Mary is at home reading from her Bible, then....you came home, body language closed off as usual....her face immediately darkened once she saw books about menstruating and the female anatomy in your hands....her face turned stone cold....then she spoke, tone laced in a mix of anxiety and angered authority.

"Carriette....what are those?"

She eyed you with slight revulsion and authoritarian anger....you knew what would happen....she'd force you on your knees to pray and send you into your 'prayer chamber'....you paused anxiously...after pleading with your mother, she forced you on your knees to pray and opened a Bible, she spoke, tone authoritative and full of belief.

"You're a woman now. Let us pray 'woman'. And God made Eve, from the Rib of Adam...and Eve was weak. And loosed the raven on the world, the raven was called SIN...Say it 'woman'!"

You repeated after her, voice low and soft....

"And God visited Eve with a Curse, the curse of blood....I prayed Cerriette. I prayed it wouldn't come upon you....!"

She paused in anger and fear....she spoke, tone firm and stony cold....

"Go to your chamber and pray!"

You tearfully shook your head in fear, she then stood you up and dragged your protesting form to a door in the kitchen, uttering religious scripture, she shoved you in forcefully and violently, inside was a small cramped room made to look like a religious altar, candles on a table, a big crucified eerie looking Jesus on the wall, a crown of bloody thorns on his head, the realistic design of blood dripping from his palms and feet....on top of the drawer was 2 unlit candles and a box of matches, before you could screech to be let out, your mother shut the wooden door behind her, you banged at the door, crying and pleading to be let out...you heard your mother whispering prayers behind the door......an hour came and you tearfully prayed....staring up at the Jesus on the wall...it frightened you...

After an hour, your mother found you on the floor, almost sleeping, she tenderly helped you up and led you upstairs to bed...she then sat at her sewing machine....