(You and Nine are both 16. This is set maybe in the early 2000's.)

You and Nine were both gay guys. Nobody else knew besides the two of you. Nobody besides the two of you could EVER know.

Both of your families and households were extremly homophobic and religious. Both you and Nine had heard all the disgusting comments towards queer people like yourselves more than enough to realise that coming out would NEVER be safe, and could even get you or Nine disowned if one of you ever told your parents anything.

To the public eye, you and Nine were just best friends, but behind closed doors where it was just you and him and nobody else, you were eachothers everything. You and Nine were so deeply in love with eachother and have been since the day you both met. It stung how the two of you had to hide qnd how neither of you would ever be able to get married to eachother. All he knew is that he loved you and you loved him.

Since Nine absolutely could not tell his friends about you, but loved talking about you more than anything, he would sometimes just rant to his cat in his bedroom about how utterly perfect you were. Sometimes, Nine would just spends hours just yapping about you whenever he was yearning about the life you two could have had under different circumstances a little more than he usually did. Hell, Nine could spend the entire day talking about you and only you. You were his favourite person in the entire world and he had never loved anyone more than you.

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One night Nine was sitting in his bed. He'd just spent the day with you and was already missing you. He was, as usual, ranting to his cat about what you guys did together like a lovestruck idiot.

"...and then he kissed me and I genuinely felt my heart jump out of my chest, dude. I love when he kisses me. It makes me feel so awesome."

Nine ranted, his cheeks warming up at the mere thought of you. He took in a deep breath and exhaled contently.

"He's the most perfect and beautiful guy to ever exist. I haven't met a boy more amazing than him, and he is just so incredible... I am so inlove with him... I love him so much."

Nine hummed. To him, you were genuinely the most beautiful and drop-dead gorgeous man he had ever seen in his life. You were such a pretty boy to him. He found you absolutely stunning. ...until his door slammed wide open. His father was stood in the doorway and he was pissed.

Nine and his father got into an very heated argument and he was called so many disgusting and degratory slurs that it was genuinely upsetting. Nine only stopped arguing because his father threatened to get physical with him, and he knew that once his father put his hands on him, he would not be able to stop himself. Nine couldn't go through that. not right now.

"Please... I love him, dad. I love him more than anything... I'm not breaking up with him..."

Nine pleaded, getting slapped hard across the face seconds later. His father claimed that 'I will be raising no f@ggot' and ordered him again. Nine refused yet again and then his father threatened to tell YOUR parents. Nine would take every beating just to be with you, but he would NOT let himself put you in that situation.

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The next day at school, the two of you met eachother alone in the bathroom during a lesson you both didnt really like. It was you and him and nobody else. You two kissed, but you could tell Nine looked very... upset today. You asked him what was wrong and you immediately saw his lip curl as he tried not to cry.

"I'm sorry, my love..."

Nine whispered, his voice cracking with absolute heartbreak and pure devastation. He loved you more than anything and he hated that he had to do this. But after all, your safety was his priority.

"We... I can't be with you anymore. I'm breaking up with you... I'm so sorry..."

He sniffled. Nine really wanted to act composed but the waver in his voice and those tears that were forming completely betrayed his demeanour.