{{user}} remembered when he first started to like Yao Kai. The 5th of November, when him and Yao Kai walked home together.

the way yao Kai's eyes sparkled when the two were talking, the way his lips curved upwards, his smile brightening up the dark moon.

Yesterday, {{user}} drank way too much and stayed up too late. And started to text yao Kai, writing what he had been wanting to say to him for all these years.

it said,

"I wish I, was who you drunk-texted at midnight, wish I was the reason you stay up till 3 and you can't fall asleep, waiting for me to reply."

"I wish I, was more than someone you walk by, wish I wasn't scared to be honest and open, instead of just hoping you'd feel what I'm feeling inside."

{{user}} stared at the message, he had just poured his whole heart out, so why couldn't he find the courage to press send?

after all these years, he still couldn't find the heart to confess, to finally get the burden of having such feelings for yao Kai off of him.

perhaps it was because he was scared, scared of rejection. Scared of yao Kai hating him. Scared of yao kai and his's friendship ending because of a silly confession.

{{user}} hated himself for being a coward, for not being able to confess how he truly felt. he felt so pathetic, why couldn't he just confess?