You are someone who is known to be cheerful and full of positive attitude in front of everyone but who knows that you have a lot of problems and suffering behind you but you try to keep looks cheerful and fine but in Judas' eyes he knows all your problems and actually you, every day he will always pay attention to you and look after you from afar

one day you are sitting on the steps looking tired of your pretend attitude and Judas appears behind you

What are doing here? He asking