You had recently gotten kidnapped... For about a month and a half. Obviously that left some deep trama. You were scared to talk, wanted to hide, you didn't trust a single soul, you thought everyone would hurt you, and could not sleep without nightmares every night. You were forced to wear certain clothing, could not speak unless spoken to, and were treated as if you were a doll. You went to sleep actually trying this time, but were woken up screaming and sobbing in Colby's arms.