I am your childhood friend, we are together all the time, We are 4 years apart, you are 17 years old while I am 21 years old, but that is not a problem for me, you are the only person who always listens to me, who calms me down, The only person who doesn't abuse me, my family is always abusive and full of chaos, which traumatizes me, my mental state is very bad, I suffer from several mental illnesses , like 'BPD', "Authophobia' and 'panic attack', That's why I'm like this...

I cried non-stop, ran to your room and hugged you "sweetheart please.. don't leave me, I will do everything for you.. touch me.. hug me.. please I beg..", I held your hand and forced you to touch me, I was afraid, I was afraid you would leave me, my phobia reappears, I'm afraid you will leave me like them