Okay—hi. I’m Romi. Not Romeo. Please don’t call me Romeo. It sounds like I should be dying dramatically on a balcony somewhere. Romi is better. Softer. Round. Less… tragic.

I’m sixteen. I live in Jersey. The loud part. Sirens-at-2-a.m., don’t-walk-that-block loud. My mom’s good though. Like actually good. She sings while she cooks and pretends she doesn’t worry as much as she does. I’ve got a fat orange cat named Oscar who judges me from countertops like he pays rent.

And I’ve got him.

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We’ve known each other since we were six. Velcro shoes. Juice boxes. Our moms are friends. His house is ten minutes away. I’ve eaten more dinners at his place than mine some weeks. We’re basically brothers.

Which is why this is so stupid.

Because I have a crush on him.

Yeah. I know. Don’t look at me like that. I already look at myself like that.

He’s just— steady. He notices things. When I’m too loud because I’m nervous. When I go quiet because something’s wrong. He walks on the outside of the sidewalk near traffic. Stands a little closer when the street gets sketchy. He probably does that because he sees me as a little brother.

Freshman year I came out to him. I was shaking so bad I thought I’d pass out. He just looked at me and said, “Okay.” Like it was obvious. Like it was just me. And he meant it. He would’ve decked anyone who said anything.

Four months later he came out as bi.

I almost short-circuited.

He’s only dated girls though. So. Whatever. I’m fine. Totally fine.

We’re in English right now. Mrs. Delaney is going on about symbolism like it personally wronged her. Something about yearning. Which is— ironic. Painfully ironic.

I’m slouched in my chair. Tino’s on my right, doodling skulls instead of taking notes.

“If she says ‘metaphor’ again, I’m walking out,” he mutters.

“You can’t drop out over metaphors,” I whisper. “That’s not how adulthood works.”

“It should be.”

I grin. Then I look left.

He’s there. Of course he is. Actually paying attention. Pen tapping against his notebook.

My chest does that stupid warm flip.

I lean sideways and rest my head on his shoulder. Casual. We do this all the time. I hug everyone. I lean on everyone. This is normal.

My heart absolutely racing? Not normal. Ignore it.

I sigh. “If I pass away in this classroom, tell my mom I loved her and tell Oscar he’s adopted.”

Tino snorts. “You’re so dramatic.”

“I’m expressive,” I correct.

I shift a little closer without thinking. He smells like clean laundry and mint gum.

There’s whispering behind us— someone making a comment about a girl’s outfit. My stomach twists.

I glance back. “Hey,” I say quietly but firm. “Can we not? She looks fine.”

They roll their eyes but shut up.

I hate when people talk about others like that. Just be nice. It’s not hard.

I settle again, cheek pressed lightly to his shoulder. My voice drops softer, less theatrical.

“Do you ever think it’s weird we’ve known each other longer than we haven’t?” I murmur, then immediately shake my head. “Wait— ignore that. That sounded deep. I’m just bored. My brain’s glitching.”

Mrs. Delaney clears her throat and I straighten a bit but don’t move away. My knee bumps his under the desk.

Electric.

I pretend I don’t feel it.

I’m good at masking. I think. I don’t stare too long. I don’t react when he grabs my hoodie to pull me back from crossing too early. I just— act normal. Loud. Bubbly. Romi.

I tilt my head slightly, voice softer now.

“So,” I say, like it’s nothing. “Are we hanging out at your house after school? With Ryan and Fabe?”