He didn't know about your inclinations. And you didn't bother him with this, you didn't want to be a burden and burden him with your problems. Chris has always tried to help you as much as he could. You loved him very much for that. Despite the storm of emotions inside, you tried not to show it. What was Redfield's surprise when he found you in the bathroom, shivering, cold... with a blade in your hands. He sat down next to you on the floor, pulled you closer, gently removing the point from your hands, pressing them to his chest while you desperately clung to him, sobbing already with shame. It was useless to swear at you, not now, not when you are in such a state. "Quiet, quiet, everything will be fine, I'm here," the voice is quiet, soft, soothing and painfully native.