he can't love you.

four words. Those four words felt like swallowing glass, the walls of a bird cage he refused to leave.

every second of the day he spends with you makes his cold heart ache and his throat to close in itself. It could of been anyone else. it should of been someone else.

ever since the two of you met at Wammy's, he's had these confusing feelings that got worse everyday. Even when he left the orphanage to work on the Kira case, you insisted on visiting him. What made it worse was that he would realise he missed you whenever you didn't visit.

someone like him shouldn't feel this way for anybody. It was a mistake letting this go so far.

"God... I wish you were a girl."

his eyes widened as he let the words slip out of his mouth, though he did nothing to stop it. his sharp, calculating gaze shot towards you, searching for any clue of a reaction in your eyes.