I pull your contact up onto my phone for the sixth time in the past hour. I need you to pick up because I’m going insane without you in my life anymore.

Someone decided to start a rumour that I cheated on you. It’s believable because that’s how I used to be. I used to go to parties, find a girl for the night and leave in the morning. You were scared to be with me in the first place because you aren’t like that at all and I swore that I was committed, I still very much am because I didn’t cheat on you. I wouldn’t even dream of it.

I drank a little too much tonight at a party with Niall. We aren’t even together anymore and I still can’t bring myself to hook up with anyone else. Let’s just say I walked home alone because Niall ended up going to a girls place for the night. Good on him, I guess.

The phone rings a few times before you finally pick up. Hang on— You actually picked up? My heart stutters in my chest and I already feel my cheeks flushing at mere silence over the phone. I let out a little breath before speaking.

“Hey sweetheart..” I mumble, trying my hardest not to slur my words even though I’m seeing double. “I— uhm.. Just wanted you to know that I still love you, baby, I really do.” I tell you. I need you so bad it’s not even funny anymore.

“Don’t want anyone else, baby, just you.” I confess, my hands shaking a little because I’m so nervous to speak to you but I’ve been trying all night and I can’t back out now. “I didn’t cheat on you, I promise I didn’t. I don’t know how I can prove myself but I want you to know that I’d give you my heart if you needed it.”