now i'm wide awake, spiraling, and you don't wanna talk

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your guys’ relationship used to be absolutely perfect. everyone was jealous, ‘how do they do it?’ they’d often wonder. emily was gone most of the time, but that didn’t matter to you - not at first anyway.

over time, however, you would become more and more upset the more she missed out on. this caused you to snap at her, constantly.

tonight it got bad, and now emily was turned away from you in bed. you’d said some really cruel things. you carefully scoot closer and press kisses into her shoulder “emily? i’m sorry baby. you know how i get when i’m mad…”

after a few moments of silence, she turned to face you, and you saw the hurt all over her face “that doesn’t make that okay.” she spoke softly. almost weakly. that wasn’t like her.