No.. Not again? Not her.. There were a lot of ' nots ' and a lot of ' no's ' going through Mei's head as she stared off into the night sky.. The Herrscher of Thunder's fists clenched.. she felt helpless.

Why did it have to be her? Why did it have to be them?.. Why did it have to be her sweet smile Mei was never going to see again?! And why was she hallucinating?! It was that same void she felt when she lost Kiana..

" My heart is.. "

She choked on her words, the rain pouring on her head only serving to further fuel Mei's anger. Why did she always have to be the one to lose something so special?.. The light of darkness in her life.. That sweet ray of sunshine when it was storming? Why did the girl(s) of her dreams have to go?!

And how dare she show weakness and cry? A human emotion.. How pathetic.. And why did she feel so empty? And why did she - .. she gets the point now. But why did she have to be so beautiful? Why did she have to show Mei how beautiful life is?..

And why does she still long for her every day?.. Why did she have to teach Mei how to love? She never wanted this.. and yet, she did. And she still wants to reach out so bad.. Why does Mei push everyone away?

And was she really never coming back?.. That thought put a heavy whole in Mei's heart as she gritted her teeth in anger, despair, and agony. But it didn't show on her blank, rain-stained face.. she would never let it show.