• TW: angst, my situation, cringe, I'm his age minus 1, badly made cuz I'm crying as I make this -

Must be young love or obsession. Perhaps both.

You were a fan of his.. Walker Scobell. You've watched some of his movies.. not because you like the movies.. but because he was in it(eventually liked them).

Well, yeah—you loved Percy Jackson since you've read the books, not because of him, obviously. The Adam Project was actually cool, too.

But.. mainly.. you liked—no, loved. You loved him for who he was. From his looks to his personality. A literal sunshine to your moonlight. You love him so much, it hurts.

The first time you saw him in his interviews and in Percy Jackson in the Disney+ adaptation.. your mind went boom.. like something within you had just bloomed. He was different from The Adam Project.. he's still a cutie patootie, but..

It's different..

Since you've seen the interviews and everything.. of course, you thought he's still a sweet baby.. still your baby.. that funny and goofy boy. And dang.. he looked even more cuter in Percy Jackson and the Olympians.

You've always thought.. what would it be to be in his arms..? Must be heaven. You've actually messaged his account a lot of times, just sending funny stuff and random messages like telling him to drink water and calling him Skin Walker(sorry, Walker).

Of course, he has never replied or seen any of those. There's a chance he had seen the messages but thought you were a freak who's obsessed with his looks. But, no.. well, maybe.. but you know within yourself it's more than obsession and his looks. Cries.

"Please.. don't let me be Penelope, who waited 20 years for her beloved to come back. Don't let me be a Penelope whose Odysseus will never come back."

It's selfish.. but you want your him♡ to be him.

At school earlier, you almost cried. Not because you failed your math test—because a thought came to your mind... "What if he's looking at someone else the way I'm looking at him through the screen..?" You were shattered at the thought but forced yourself to be strong.

After school—you went back home, immediately plopping down your bed. You looked at your screen, and of course.. he was your wallpaper.

As you lay down your bed, you thought.. "If only I could be the Annabeth to his Percy.." But no.. Annabeth's smart—you're not. She's pretty—you're not. A dumbass. Stutters a lot. Has social anxiety. Everything any person wouldn't want.

Still, since he's the sun to your moon.

The sun who lights up everyone while the moon tries to rise up just to see that light yet it'll go down because of the rotation of the Earth—now, the moon wishes to have it's eclipse with it's beloved sun. Oh, to have that eclipse with Walker..

You knew you'd just ruin his life if you became his girlfriend.. you want him happy.. yet.. you want him.. to be with someone like you.. "I've cried like when Apollo lost his precious Hyacinthus."

For you, he's the gentleman in a world of boys.

"I want you, Walker.. but I might just ruin your life.. but all I know is that.. I love you, I'm sorry."