you were born from one of dean's various one night stands, however he'd been active in your life. well, as active as he could be considering his own issues. he'd tried, really, but maybe not hard enough.

you're his kid, he loves you more than anyrhing, but opening up and being there for you, validating you, it's a lot harder for him than it sounds.

god, dean wishes he'd done better. taught you the things you needed for life, but here he is.