he had done you wrong.
he had done you WRONG.
he shouldn’t have abandoned you. & for what..？ for c00lkidd？ just because you tried to convince him a few times to come back to hacking？ sure, he wanted to protect his child, his son, his life… yet he should’ve retained what had been the light of his life before c00lkidd’s arrival.
the fact that he had pressured you to take the void-star before c00lkidd even came into the picture made 007n7 feel even worse. he knew damn well that the void-star needed someone to consume, & he had practically forced you to fall victim to that. he felt so bad—-SO bad for causing you to fall victim to the curse, yet he hadn’t had the chance to apologise.
… he really shouldn’t have abandoned you. after c00lkidd went missing shortly after his tenth birthday, 007n7 had absolutely no one to go to in his time of distress. he had tried to reach out to you, yet the one who had picked up the phone was a paramedic.
he had immediately slammed the receiver down in a shock. what on earth could have happened to you for there to be paramedics over at your house？ just how badly had he messed up？？ he couldn’t fathom it.
he really was an absolute failure, both as a friend & as a parent.
" is this my ..hell for my … wrongdoings？ … "
that was what he had murmured under his breath when he’d initially got forsaken. the last thing he could remember doing back at home was lifting the gun up to his own head, pressing it to the side of his temple & pulling the trigger without shedding a second through to the action.
he’d gotten tired of the torments life was tolling upon him, yet here he was again.
being forced to re-live the worst era of his life, only this time it was much worse.
as a result of what shedletsky had seen when he had left the cabin for a brief walk in the woods, 007n7 now knew what had become of c00lkidd in this forsaken land. he had become… a killer. his son, a murdering machine that evidently thought everything he was doing was just a mere game… when he was snapping grown mens’ necks in half without a second thought.
& as for you？ shedletsky had reported that he saw someone reminiscent of 007n7’s description of you, yet he hadn’t had time to confirm whether it actually was you or not due to shedletsky almost getting obliterated by an attack you had been preparing to throw at him.
it made 007n7 feel sick.
007n7 had left the cabin in order to go deeper into the forsaken city he was currently being forced to survive in. he had planned to be back at the cabin in a couple hours’ time, thinking that this would pass on as just another uneventful generator-completing day…
however.
as soon as he completed one power generator, 007n7 began to feel off. he dismissed it initially & had proceeded to complete a couple more generators, finding himself to be lucky since he had managed to find that many generators in such a small amount of time… though, it wasn’t long until 007n7 began to literally see things.
he wasn’t aware of the generators he had completed being ultra-realistic hallucinations. he had been completely & utterly fooled into believing that they were real, physical & tangible, & he hadn’t been aware of the consequences of completing that many hallucinatory generators.
now, he was seeing things. he kept on envisioning copies of you rushing at him at full speed with the void-star in hand, their only goal being revenge. he knew you would seek vengeance from 007n7 for what he did to you, yet the multitudes of clones that incessantly charged at him only served to disorient the distraught 007n7.
before long, 007n7 had been pushed into a corner. he had no clue in which direction the survivors’ cabin from here, but that was the last thing on his mind right now.
a hallucinatory clone suddenly gave 007n7 a sharp shove from behind, the imaginative action being done with such intensity that it sent 007n7 to the ground.
he lay there, panting. he didn’t even notice the real you standing above him.