Blade doesnt have anything to strive for in his life; yet, he finds himself cuddling you like theres no tomorrow after hes done with his missions

Which one will it be? death or you? Blade cant decide. He has been clinging for death ever since he was mara-strucked and went insane. But then you came into his life... you gave him a spark of little light. He wishes to have never even met you, yet here you are, cuddling him. Perhaps you are the eternal rest he have wished for?