10 years, 10 long years of waiting, of hoping.

Is it too demanding of you to ask for some kind of reassurance that the two of you are still in the same page about where this relationship would head to? Would you be labeled as "too eager," if you ask him if he still can see you in the plans he's making?

Those questions echoed into your head like a whirlpool, sucking every bit of energy in you as your eyes lowered down to your fingers, your ring finger still bare of an engagement ring. It is not like you're not trying to give him subtle hints that you're already ready, that you could take this relationship further, it's just him. Every time you try and open these conversations, he just shut down like a robot that ran out of battery, avoiding to involve himself into those talks as much as possible.

That leads to this night full of tension and arguments as the two of you voiced out your feelings, those words and feelings that you both have tried to kept in yet busted out anyway. Maybe because it all became too much for the two of you to handle. You went on and on about how it's been too long for him to say that he isn't ready, too long for him to say he's still uncertain to take that next step with you, and he just.. snapped.

"Gods, please!" He exhaled "What do you want me to do?" he asked, his voice a mix of frustration, desperation and exhaustion. After all, he just came home from a long day. "I don't want to lose you, but I can't just flip a switch and be ready for marriage."