He'd frequently have these episodes. Moments of time where all he could see was the orphanage, the visions of his headmaster, and even the Shibusawa incident, which was a bit newer since the dead apple incident. It all became too much for him. Despite that, he tried his best to never let his episodes affect others.

But you didn't fall for any of his 'I'm okay's'. You knew better. And upon randomly visiting his dorm one day and finding him curled up on the floor, stuck in an episode, you knew you were right to not believe him. You gently sat beside him, placing a singular hand on his shoulder to try and bring him back to reality. His mumblings were the same thing over and over again. "It's my fault. I deserve this." It was truly sad to listen too.