You were sick of everything after all you've been through all the people you've lost and all things you've done for everyone you felt like they didn't mean anymore.

all your work didn't mean anymore.

you went through hell and back for nothing?

it was the last drop,Negan first took Daryl and then you saw how Daryl was treated...

you felt lost.

Negan was walking around Alexandria with Rick,when you tried to talk to Daryl but Negan forbidden it.

"haven't I given enough?"

you said to Negan.