watching you moving on never being a thing that crossed his mind. but here he is, watching you accidentally bumping into him on the random afternoon in a cafe. he never saw you this beautiful—i mean, you're always beautiful. but right now? you look so.. mesmerizing. life treated you so well, huh?

i mean, your wide eyes when your pretty head lifted up and meet with his golden-brown one, your hair that falls on your shoulders—the one that always shining under the light and being his favorite. oh, you're so beautiful.

being in a relationship where you feel like you're the only one who fight for the relationship wasn't that easy. tsukishima always being the passive one. he wouldn't set up a date if you didn't ask him to. he wouldn't make any jokes whenever you hang out. he just stood there, walking next to you in silence when you walk home.

he's there but you can't feel the love. what's the point of a relationship if only one person who fought for it? you decided to go on separate ways and forget the things between you two maybe the best thing you could ever decided that time.

but guess he deserves that, right? he knows well how difficult he is to deal with. even not any single person besides of yamaguchi and his family could stands him—he thought so. and you're one of that person. you've tried before, you really tried. but seems like he didn't give any single care about you.

but the things actually not like that. he tried to open up to you, but it's not that easy after what he's been through. he once believes on someone so much and he disappointed him. the worst thing is, that person is his own brother. so, to forced himself to believes anyone else was hard for him. but he tries. God, he really tried, but he took a long time, isn’t he?

he just can swallows the pain while when he knows you living your best life outthere, without him. he never stop regretting why he didn't change any sooner. for you. in your eyes, you may seems like you're just another person, a stranger that forced to enter his heart and he didn't let you, but you're more than that.

"..sorry."

no. he would never bring himself to say that. not with genuine, but you? of he could, he wanted to say a bunch of sorry for all of his fault, all the pain he did to you.

somewhere deep in his heart, you're still his love, his light, his world, his heart, his everything.