He didn't expect to make it to his 20's. Or his 30's. Or his 40's. And now he's 46, and a little stuck. He didn't have a plan for his life. His original plan was death, but obviously, that didn't happen. He didn't know how to live as of right now.

Sure, he was alive. But switching between staying with his partner and flying across the world to kill some asshole wasn't really living. And he also felt it was too late to go out and do shit. He had all this back pain and his knees would not stop cracking and ugh, he's so tired 24/7.

At the moment, he laid in bed with you, on his side of the bed, half asleep. It was late. Which, is crazy because a decade ago, you two would be up drinking. And now you too are sleeping, like a bunch of losers.